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My name is Samantha, though anymore people just call my Sam, which is okay, but I do prefer Samantha. I still have a whole life ahead of me, and even though it may get tough and complicated at times, I still find ways to get through it. I am surrounded by people I absolutely love and adore, as well as people who are just there, but that is pretty much the life of a human. I absolutely love school, it's the one thing in life that I am good at. I hold a steady job and get involved in clubs at school. I absolutely love Forensics club, and its not the study of dead bodies, but rather a speech club. For the most part, people like me and I have a deep way of thinking most of the time, even though I try not to show it, but perhaps, in this blog, I just might.

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Let it Be!!

What is a big thing in todays society? RELIGION! My goodness, where the whole aspect of religion has gone is madness.
A lot of new debates are kicking off. Practically everyday people change religions and all the time people are finding out new religions. In the world, there are millions.
That is billions of people following millions of different religions and the really beautiful part is that we all can co-exist together.
And yet, what is a big problem with religion? Most people don't accept another persons religion if it if different then theirs. People get this mindset in religion that says "I'm right, you're wrong, and that is that." Who can really say what religion is right? No one.
There is no proof that one religion is right or wrong. It all just depends on faith. And as where most people say they are accepting of other religions, they really aren't.
Frankly, my own religion is different then a lot of people and only close friends in my life know what that is. But even around them, they instantly go tense and get on the defense if I mention anything about my religion or talk about what I may or may not believe in, and yet, I am just so supposed to sit there and let them preach the chior about their own religion and act like it doesn't affect me?
I am totally fine with people I know not believing in what I do and having their own, but respect it please.
If you are going to try to disprove my religion, you had better know I am going to do the same thing back. If you roll your eyes when I talk about my beliefs, you had better believe I am going to do that same with what you say about your own beliefs.
I don't ask for much in my life, but I do ask for acceptance. You believe what you do because that is what makes sense to you. What you believe is something that you can feel with your heart and understand with all your mind. The same thing goes for me. I believe what I believe because that is what makes sense to me. I don't always have the doubts in my mind and its something that doesn't contradict my own morals no matter what they be.
So when you get on someones case for having their own religion or roll your eyes when they speak about it, don't get upset when they do the same to you. Religion is part of our lives and it is going to get brought up in conversation so just go with it. You don't have to agree or even like it, but you had better respect everyones right to their own belief. What goes around comes around. You respect their beliefs and they will respect yours. Just let it be.

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

OOOOHHHH goodness. . .

It's pretty sad, but as I go back and read a lot of my old blogs, I feel like a total idiot. A really really big part of me wants go and delete all of them because I am so embarrassed by them, but then I rethought that decision.

All my past blogs were intense thoughts that were going through my mind at the time I wrote them. They mean something to my life because I have felt all of those things and it is almost like looking back at myself from a future perspective.

As embarrassing as they can get because I pretty much threw everything in my head out into the open, I am going to leave them there for future references.

Basically, what I am trying to say is that there are going to be things in your life that happen that you are completely embarrassed about, but NORMALLY, there isn't just a delete button to make it go away. You have to live with it and be okay with that.

A big saying in my life is to never regret the things that made me happy. Those blogs are a part of my past life that made me happy because they let me express how I was feeling and that should be important in anyones life.

So don't try to rid yourself of the past. It has brought you to the present. And if you don't like the present, use the future to change that. We all have the power to make our lives better so use that to your advantage and be happy so when you look upon your past, you can embrace it.

JUDGERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Most people extremely dislike people that judge a book by its cover. The thing is, everyone does it. It is something that is competely unavoidable. As humans, we all judge, therefore, we all probably judge a book by it's cover, metophorically and literally.

The problem doesn't come with judging, it's more so not knowing how to judge. I know, I know, that sounds pretty low and shallow. But it's true. There are people out there that can read a person as if they were an open book, and then there are the people that think they can and just have their head up their ass for the warmth. Half the time, they aren't even aware of that fact. But I'm sure that every single person knows someone who is like that.

When you don't know your ass from a hole in the ground, you really shouldn't judge a book by it's cover. BUT! If you are one of those people that have a nack (sp?) for understanding people and knowing if you are going to be able to be friends with them the instant you see them, then GO FOR IT! You obviously know what you are doing. And you know if you are one of those people or not. If you have to ask yourself that question, then you aren't one of those people and that is just the cold hard truth.

On to the topic of just plain judging. There really isn't a damn thing wrong with it if you can judge properly (I mean how can it be so wrong if they literally have a job for judging XD). If you are just going to say something hurtful or unnecessary to be a jerk, then go sew your mouth shut and cover it with super glue (lets just hope you don't get a cold... cause then your noes would be clogged... and you probably wouldn't be able to breathe... and you would die... and that's bad... so just beware of that fact.)

Ok. That's it. I have lost motivation for this specific blog. Later.

Monday, March 1, 2010

Don't Even Know a Title

So I am definitely noticing that the people around me are happy. And my whole life I have done nothing but try to make the people I know and love happy, thinking that would make me happy as well. As I notice people living life and smiling, I can't help but notice that I am miserable.

Now don't take that the wrong way. I am absolutely thrilled to see the people I love getting where they want to go. But my own life is getting me no where. My very grades seem to be slipping from underneath me. I have no love life, unless you include my love for people who will never love me. My family is falling apart. Whether it is my brothers causing shit in their own lives and the rest of ours, or my dad being in the hospital day in and day out, things just aren't going so well.

As I find myself in this depressingly dark hole, I can't help but look around and see that I am all by myself. Of course I see many people walking around the hole in the ground, staring down at me in my ragged clothes and dirty face, and I see sympathy. They say "Hold on! Let me find a rope and I will get you out! Just hang in there!" And as I sit here with high hopes waiting for the people who I have always been there to come back and repay the favor, they just never show up. Days and days later, no one is there. And each day there are less and less people walking by. No, scratch that. There are probably more people then ever walking by, but there is no one stopping to even care that I am stuck down here.

Thanks people. And as much as I say these people will one day get what they deserve or that one day they will need me and I will turn my back on them as they did me, I can't really say that. I am just not that kind of person no matter what the circumstances may be. I will always be here for the people in my life. It just isn't right and I know it isn't right. And even though I sit here and complain about it, I still won't do anything about it. Pointless right?

I just won't go on from here. Although I believe this blog is yet unfinished, I will not continue with it now. Perhaps at a later date.

Friday, January 15, 2010

LOTS-O-STUFF

Okay! So obviously I haven't posted in quite a while. I apologize for my lack of blogging! I know, how horrible of me to keep my depressing thoughts to myself (it's a joke, laugh darn you!)! So at this very moment, I really don't know what to put on here so I am hoping that something will come to me! While I am thinking of what to type, let me express my inner thinkings!
I am sitting in my seventh hour at the moment and planned to write this really motivational blog and show just why someone came up with the idea of blogging and I am doing a really poor job of it to be perfectly honest! Now on to the real blog!
Life. People go their entire lives trying to figure out why they are here. What is the point of that? You are here to live your life. You don't necessarily have to know why you are here. The important thing is that you are here and you should be happy about that. What's the point of spending your entire life trying to figure out why you are here. You are already here, embrace it. You have a purpose. It's everything around you. You are here for the people in your life, you are here for the moments that take place, because without one person in this world, who knows what could be thrown off in this world. So stop worrying about WHY you are here. Whether you know it or not, the people around you do. You are important in our lives and that is why you are here. So if you don't like it, well who cares! I am not giving you a choice. You have to like it! NEXT TOPIC!
You know what I honestly hate? People let the bad mistakes of everyone else in their life ruin their day. YOU ARE NOT THEM!! Okay, I get it. When someone makes a mistake or a decision in their life that ends up screwing you over, that you are going to be angered by that. But why let it run your life? I know SEVERAL people that do that and it's a waste of time. Get over it. Crap happens in peoples life every single day. That is the point of life. We don't live in a straight line. Our lives are lines yes, but there is bumps and curves and loopdy(sp?) loops and dips and mountains and hills and twists and turns and who knows what else. There are going to be hundreds of instances in your life when you are going to face hardships and difficulties and you have to keep going. That is life. Of course you are going to hate the hardships, its a hardship! No one likes them. We complain and say, "I'm not ready for this!" NEWSFLASH! Of course you won't be ready for it. That is why HARDships are so HARD to deal with. So get over it! Yeah, I am aware of how harsh that sounds and stuff. But try to see my point. It's going to happen in life. There are going to be people that screw you over time and time again and you have to make that choice of if you want them in your life. If you do, then deal with the fact that they screw you over. If you don't, then kick them in the butt and move on with your life. Take it as a lesson well learned and just keep moving forward! It's no fun to go back because then you have to look at things you have already seen and then it just gets repetitive and boring and old. So move on with your life and leave the past behind ya!(Thank you Timone for your inspirational words of wisdom!)
And just a really random splurb(is that even a word?) but I have noticed that I am so much more fluid of a writer when I am in a BAD mood. I can't help but sit here and wonder why that would be. Perhaps it's because when I am in a bad mood I am more focused on one thing, one subject, and just one overall topic! When I am in a better mood, I find that my mind wanders more so. . . Well anyways, that was just something that popped into my mind.
Well I have come to the point in my blog where I have started babbling and thus I must bid thee adue(sp?). I thank thee quite much for reading this if you do! I love you all and may life continue to go splendidly!